We are all allowed days where we can just cry without a care, right? Today was that day for me... I received a call saying I got the nannying job--who thought I wasn't going to get it?-- and I began crying.. Jj's starting head start after labor day, which means he'll be going to school 3.5 hours a day 5 days a week.. And then to Kindercare for the next 4 hours daily. I won't be seeing him during the week... It made me so sad! I mean I can drop him off at school on monday&wednesdays but then I won't see him until late at night those nights... And I'll be working from 11-4 on Tuesday's and 8:30-4:30 on Thursday's... Thursdays I won't be seeing him in the morning! And who know about Tuesday's... Fridays I have clinicals at 6:30-5:10 on the other side of the world... ((sighs)) life sucks sometimes... Im having a hard time thinking about this semester's weird schedule.. I hate it already..
I wrote Jessica (the little girl I cared for the past 4 years) a note for her first day of school and I broke down crying even more. I'm having a hard time thinking about this semester's changes... I'm nervous... And as I write this post, I'm crying some more. :( I just needed to get that off my chest.. :/